The article sat in my draft folder since mid-March. I would come back to it periodically and assume it needed more, but it never happened. The reality of the life of a writer-mom is that you have five thousand things that need to be done and find yourself having to chose only a few each day.
Many things are bound to fall off the list. The list? Let’s not go there. This article wasn’t supposed to bring that up. I am already chasing grocery-list-trails in my head. Back to the topic.
If I wait for everything to be perfect, I will:
- never create
- never write a word
- never risk
- never share
- never make a funny video + show you
Proof? Because truthfully, I have recorded about 5 videos and haven’t showed any of them and there’s about 250 posts from the past year and a half that I never actually published. And not publishing something is okay too.
Because writing in and of itself is a help. Is a soul fuel. But…
How can I explain further my irritation of perfection? Let me share a quick story from the other day…
I was trying not to be in a rush to finish the kid’s homework, so I said a prayer and what finally felt like hours later, we finished. I was going to start writing, but I remembered I didn’t have the dishes done.
Me and that sink had a stare down. It won. I got to work but as I was loading the dishwasher (1st world problems, I know) I had a great line come to me.
I darted to the back of the house to grab my notebook and pen. Jotting the line down, I set the notebook down and went back to the sticky plates covered in breakfast’s syrup.
I shook my head and refetched the notebook shortly after. There was no reason I couldn’t just put the thing near me while I was cleaning. I am a writer am I not?
I laid it on the stove and noticed a pep in my step while doing the dishes thereafter. A simple problem, solved. After that, I thought of a couple other helpful lines, and was refreshed at the fact I could lean over and scribble them.
Sometimes we just need to be okay with what our lives look like.
Sometimes it doesn’t always appear the way we think it should, but I am sure God knows what He’s doing, and in our choosing to plow ahead at any rate, I believe He will bless our work. (Psalm 90:17)
Because we commit it to Him.
- I will keep writing, dishes or not.
- I will keep writing even in the mundane-seeming spaces.
- I will keep writing even though I know my five year old will draw huge art on top of it, causing me to have to acquire a skill of “finding my own work.” (I don’t resent these things anymore!)
- I will keep writing even when my “planned” day doesn’t pan out to my preference.
- I will keep writing even when I feel like I have zero authority to write.
- I will keep on writing even when I can’t see the fruits from it.
I will keep on. Will you?
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